cooking made me sad

today I had to cook a whole chicken, becose money isn’t lasting enough and we couldn’t afford to buy the breast meat only like normal and whole birds are cheap. I don’t really like handling meat and I prefer it to be in pieces and frozen so that it isn’t like meat. well after the chicken was cooked and cooled down I had to take the meat off the bone, and I didn’t know it was going to make me so sad. I started crying about half way through and a big had to finish for me. I don’t know why I get so upset but it was horrible. at one point I broke off a leg and it broke so easily I wondered do chicken legs always dislocate so easily? I didn’t like the feel of the meat and I didn’t like the feel of the bones dislocating. they said they’d do it next time if we have to get whole ones again. I want to be on the veggietrain now.